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Engineering Manager | Trail Runner | Stockholm, Sweden

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Tuesday, 7 July, 2009 - sesam

I experience this on almost a daily basis. When I go to sleep my heart starts to race and my brain goes haywire: all the anxieties suppressed by daylight resurface, I think of what ifs and should haves, start making up scarily lifelike worst case scenarios. Then of course the following day I'd be harried and useless, oversleeping a class and worsening the situation. I'm not sure what I lack... discipline? maturity? mental strength? sanity? Plus, yeah, I'm "lucky" and "a bright future awaits" of course, without doubt, right.