Engineering Manager | Trail Runner | Stockholm, Sweden
It has been snowing all the day and the wind blows fiercely. Blizzard is out there and I don't know how will I be able to get to budapest for tomorrow even. Trains have hours of delays. I may spend the night on one of them. I just love weather... What if I had a peaceful and successful exam for once?? ;(
The sun is still shining, and the snow remained. It is cold outside with a nasty icy wind. However from the inside it looks very calm and nice. While going to Budapest I was just staring out of the window of the carriage admiring the snow-covered nature. And at 11:30AM I failed my analysis exam. As a matter of fact the failure is not official yet, as it was a written exam and the results will be available only tomorrow. However I am absolutely positive I failed. I simply didn't solve enough problems to get the sufficient points to pass.
There are two exams in a semester. Both written and worth 50 points. 40 points are to be gathered to pass (from the 2 exams summed up) but neither of the exams can be worse than 15 points. I had 30 points on the first one, but now I am sure in 5 points only... and that is much less than needed.
This is not unique at all: my best friend says he won't have any points at all. I am not alone.
Today is so better than the days before. I can't exactly explain why. I feel some kind of harmony around me. Maybe the snow has something to do with it. It has been snowing since the crack of dawn. And it snows heavily. It stopped for an hour or so, but it started again as soon as my father was ready with shoveling the snow from the pavement in front of our house.
I am planning to play some AO after lunch. My cute she-fixer kind of r00lz. :) Thanks to the Chemical Maussers I got from Spindizzy and to the mezz my brother's crat has no mob can frighten us two. It is really fun.
I do hope this feeling of flying in happiness (no, I don't smoke pot, hehe) remains for tomorrow's exam as well. As I was told: there is great potential in me. I must show it is true.
Not much to tell today. I learned some maths and played some AO. I have certain fears about the upcoming maths exam, but as pessimistic attitude never helps, I don't say a word. As for AO my brother started a crat (his ever-favourite prof) so I went for a fixer. By the way I am thinking about a page on this site that would contain my characters. Well after exam-period I guess.
Do you beleive in horoscopes? I sometimes read my horoscope in the papers just out of curiosity. If it predicts a good day/week for me it fills me with satisfaction while if it says my future is dark I can simply say: horoscopes are not true. Today's horoscope promised me success and joy all over the day, and for today's keyword it selected dignity.
As for the painful truth nothing happened the way I wanted today, I wasn't succesful in anything I had today and I was more a fool than a dignified person. In the morning I woke up early to catch the train to Budapest for I had a Sociology exam as you might already know. On my way to the train station I was running to a bus when due to the ice-covered pavement I fell on my back... right into a puddle. My suit got wet and dirty all over. (remember the keyword: dignity!?)
*Luckily* my trousers somewhat got dry during the train trip. (The train had a 20 minutes delay.) When I arrived to the university I went to check out where my exam wiould be. To my great surprise I didn't have an exam at 9AM but 2PM as the paper said. (The exam started at 9AM but there were groups arranged and I was in the 2AM group.)
Well, what could I do in a dirty suit with a whole morning available. I played cool guy and went to the cinema. :) I watched Sweet Home Alabama. I had great fun and I think this was the top of my day which I didn't know that time...
The exam gone very bad. I didn't seem to know what I knew even. I was scaringly dumb.
So what is the moral of this story? Well I should have learned more. I shouldn't have ran to catch the bus when I *knew* the pavement was slippery. I should have asked one of my friends to ceck out the exam paper for me so that I could have known exacly when would have I my exam. All in all, I sucked today bigtime. :(
I am in the just-before-exam state. Tomorrow I will have my very first oral exam at my university in Sociology. I have learned a lot - to my standards - so I think it will go smoothly. The only thing to care about is evade black cats. :)
As I am not the kind who can sit and learn for 8 hours I also played AO yesterday. I think one needs breaks between learning periods. We played with my brother again and we reached the title level of Worker and Medic. Hooray! :) And later at night I played Jagie on my brother's Atlon XP 1700+ with GeForce 440MX. Man, that was awesome! Flying over Old Athen in CF Parrot I could have a wide view over the whole city with all the towers and buildings. The horizon did not end with a blurred gaseous cloud like on my computer but all the objects in the distance were visible. And there was only the netlag not any graphics lag like on my humble celeron. I didn't know AO was *this* beautiful!
The last day of the year came with depressingly sad weather. It was raining all the day and not a single hump of snow remained due to the realtively warm temperature. And today it is freezing cold again. Brrr.
At the end of something and the start of something people tend to give an account of what happened and also propose future goals and plans. I have no intention to change this, so here is some statistics of the last year about this site: During the five months since SeSam.hu is online I wrote 64 posts. The site was redesigned once and now it contains 14 html pages. I had 132 visitors from Hungary and all over the world including France, Latvia, the United Kingdom, Netherlands and Norway.
For the upcoming year people always wish each other health, success, happiness and luck. Well I will surely need luck form 3 January (Sociology exam!!) for I have learned a lot therefore all I need is that good luck shines on me. As for the site I am sure there will be more posts (because 12 months is surely a longer time than 5, hehe ;) ). And I will constantly improve it. (There is a translation coming for Hungarians soon!) Salvaes, my Dutch friend from AO just game me a very positive feedback about what I do here. Many thanks ! :) All I can do is try to keep up the quality, which I promise.
Yep, AO. To my - and my brother's - great surprise we managed to play AO on the same ISDN line, two of us at the same time. I dowloaded {WinGate} - a proxy-kind software - and using it two Anarchy Onlines can run on the two computers of us. This means we can play together wich opens new dimensions of AO. My brother is an enforcer currently (Lordkondrat) and I started a doctor (Hamvaska). We r00l the missions believe me. ;)
To end the very fisrt post of this almost-upcoming year what else can I wish you than health, success, happiness and luck... :)
2002 is soon over. I wish you all a happy New Year! :)
Just now when I was feeding my fish I noticed that one of them is missing! Disappeared without a clue. Well, it may have... passed away, but then I suppose I should have found a corpse. Or the last chance is that my fish are cannibals! There is a large red one that resembles very much to Hannibal Lecter anyway. :)
My brother got a Macmillan English Dictionary for advanced learners for Christmas. Man, that dictionary is really good. It even has an additional CD-ROM with all the material of the dictionary plus it can pronounce all the words and there are also study-pages and pictures in it. All of this supplied with an user-friendly and up-to-date GUI (which most electronic dictionaries lack in my opinion). Macmillan made an etalon for foreign lerners.
I have read in an essay that most of the things people buy are just bought out of first sight and passion. I think this might be true. For example when I was doing my Christmas shopping I saw an auction at the games section of the local Tesco. I checked it out and out of a sudden I bought {Settlers of Catan}. :) It is a table strategy game awarded by many prizes and said to be a largely entertaining one. Well I can approve it, it IS very entertaining and fun. Even my father is caught and now we are playing almost every day a round with my brother and him. I am truly happy I bought it. :)
Yesterday - well actually today between midnight and 2 AM :) - I had a very interesting conversation with Salvaes, an ADV on AO. We chatted about the concept of MMOGs and the people who play them.
It is already known that some computer games can cause a type of addiction very similar to drugs or alcohol, when the player feels physically bad when he cannot play. This danger is more likely when we talk about MMOGs since these kind of games offer a very complex and time-consuming gameplay. I don't have any scientific or statistic proof of this but there are people who are literally always online when I am too. There are players with two or more 180+ characters which require a lot of time to build. It would be interesting to conduct a research on the effects of MMOGs on one's lifestyle. What happens to his social connections, friends? Does he go out? What else does he do in his free time?
At the current level of computer technology MMOGs have much to evolve. But if the pace of evolution of technology is this fast as it is now imagine what can come in a few years only: With the new improvements of computer technology people can experience a much sophisticated and more realistic gameplay. 3D glasses, VR, force-feedback, if all these are implemented we won't be able to tell the two worlds - real and MMOG - apart. Combined with our biological knowledge we can feed and keep alive a player automatically, connected to a computer. This way one won't need to sleep or eat at all, but can be online 7/24. One can choose to leave this misery what we call real life and choose to live on Rubi-Ka for example.
In addition these games offer a special way of gaining and holding power. Power is a thing men desire all the time. Why be a worker or learn at the university if you can be a sorcerer, a Nano-Technician and crush your enemies with deadly nano-programs.
If we are not careful enough we can end up like in Matrix bathing in chemicals and playing a grandiose MMOG we call life. And we don't even need vile robots to take over us.